Victories

Not so long ago, I sat and wondered.. why had this life chosen me? I had no answers, no supplications to permeate my thoughts but only a vision of how it should have been.

And now I’m living someone else's dream, my fantasy perhaps, a life which was meant for me, which exhausts me, challenges me and leaves me restless. It leaves me without the power to truly understand or appreciate it.

But, every so often a victory comes along; its silence is heard by all because they foresee the glitz and glamour but don't stop to analyze and wonder about the control and anguish. The truth is that all victories cost something, an amount which is left undeterred, undermined and misunderstood.

As some relationships evolve, others wind down and fall apart. But wherever to draw that line and what to say of a life that’s left unexamined?

Its a victory over yourself, when you realize that the control lies in understanding and appreciating all that is uncontrollable. All that is unreal and misunderstood. A victory which is lost to all, but won by me.

Distance

"Suburbia is where the developer bulldozes out the trees, then names the streets after them." Bill Vaughan.


A change of scenery, a change of pace. Time really does equal money and distance, what of distance?


Its only been a short while, but I've already wasted so much time just tracking the distance. Its tough to add value to that time, when sleep is needed, brain power is limited and a laundry list runs on the minds ticker tape//interminable//indescribable.

And what of the distance that grows between two people as they begin to explore the what could have beens? Time, distance. Somehow the correlation remains unpenetrated, unprecedented. How to mend it, is there a way? You can feel the stretch at your fingertips but are so completely torn as how to proceed. Let time take its course, and let the answers find themselves. Time will only tell.


or distance will slam the door shut.