Sunday, March 25, 2007

Lone


In life, since you're a child, you are promised the finding of your other half. Or the one to complete you. Or the one to take your breathe away. You are promised a life worth living through the eyes of a mate.

And then one day you realize that perhaps, somehow, in some far away land unbeknowest to you all of those dreams have gone to rest. Because the truth is that although it was promised, it wasn't realized.

And so you grow old. go old. All the past relationships just tremors in the new version of your life. Somehow it stopped making sense and fear crept in. You let fear in because the thought of the maybes was so consuming, so filling, so passionately electrifying that it lost purpose.

And so now you wonder, will you die without realizing what it's like to want to be wanted, to need to be wanted, to need to be needed? Will you ever live to know the difference between discomfort and desire. Will you ever know what its like to yearn or be yearned for?

Will you ever? A lone, lacking filler, lacking the one. And in those happily ever afters the only truth that remained was that of a tale that once occurred, that no longer is.

1 Comments:

Blogger Ruby Tuesday said...

This is a beautiful post and know that you are loved and never really alone...

We are taught so many foolish things growing up - the idea of one love, one soulmate, one person who is our counterpart, without whom we're somehow incomplete....I've blamed the ghosts of relationships past for too many things in my life until I realized that it's not them, it's me. It's having expectations about the "right person" that has caused me the heartbreak, be it what color their skin should be, what god (if any) they should pray to, how many years they've been on this earth, how many arms they've held...only recently as I've begun trying to deconstruct these expectations have I found myself to be less lonely even when I am aLONE.

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